Friday, July 28, 2023

Where does that leave your heart....

 It has been a while, but when my fingers start to stir I got to push some letters and numbers on a keyboard. 

As a human, and an individual with a soul, as someone who longs to give and receive, how do you want to be received at the end of a long day! Do you notice those days when you come home and find no one to welcome you! Where does that leave your heart?

What does your favorite dog do when you arrive home after being a way for a few hours, days or longer? The tail is probably wagging with enough energy to start a car. They might have the zoomies as they are so excited they can't stand still long enough to believe you really came back like you promised. Maybe they were so happy to see you they left a little piddle on your shoe, the excitement just squirted right out of them. How do you react when you are greeted like this? Are you smiling? Are you  scrunched down on their level talking to them in your best doggie woggie voice while scratching behind the ears and giving belly rubs? Where does that leave your heart? 

After 60 years of marriage you arrive home from another run to the store because you were out of two things and couldn't wait until you needed 5 things so you went today. Walking thru the door you look into the family room to find your mate right where you left them an hour ago sitting in their chair under their blanket surrounded by an assortment of collected items they carried to their little spot in the universe to keep them comfortable. Walking in giving a gentle kiss or pat on their arm letting them know you were back, for them to only just then realize you were gone as their mind keeps them locked in a a different place due to dementia. You recognize a familiar sadness in your soul but you know you are home and where you belong. Where does that leave your heart? 

Maybe you are one of the ones to come home and find your mini me waving in the window as you pull in the drive way. Maybe they are standing by the door yelling with glee that daddy's home or mommy's home. They come a running and quickly throw their arms around you and hold on for dear life and so happy to see that you really came back like you promised. Those little squeezes and belly blaster szlurberts (it was an 80s word) are just the introduction you needed to being home again. Where does that leave your heart? 

Then there are the days when you roll in the drive way to find the house quiet, but yet peaceful and calm to find your mate sitting quietly on the couch awaiting your arrival so they can share their day with you and vice versa. Holding hands quietly or swiping away an out of place strand of hair as you talk quietly and share the promises and the fears of your day, but quietly reassured that you both really came back like you promised. Feeling wanted and loved and accepted. Where does that leave your heart? 

Some days when you arrive home it may not be so great. The fridge is broke and leaking on the floor. Your mate is still fighting end of day traffic and picking up fast food for dinner. Your teenagers barely acknowledge your presence with a grunt through their ear buds. You are already tired and grumpy and collapse into your favorite chair that is covered in some unknown substance and while not the beautiful Hallmark welcome you had hoped for, you know you are home Even in the mess you recognize it as your mess and your home and where you belong for better or worst. Where does that leave your heart?

For some, the coming home moments are moments to avoid. Walking into the dark or empty house and you catch yourself calling out their name only to remember that they are gone. That have already gone home and await your arrival. Meals in silence with the background of the tv in background to drown out the loneliness. The nights asleep on the couch or recliner to avoid the emptiness of the bed. At the end of those days you await a phone call from one your own just to say hi, now you don't call them because you don't want to be a bother. Yet the house is full of reminders, photos and mementos of a life well lived but where does that leave your heart? 

Imagine your life if you will, as one long day! And at the end of that day is when you breathe your last, who and how do you want to be greeted on the other side of that door. 

I came across a video on FB today and it spoke to me and made me smile and shed a tear even, because I found it powerful. See below! Click the next line and watch.

https://www.facebook.com/reel/600901465572558

https://www.facebook.com/reel/600901465572558

Now that you watched that video and hopefully have taken a moment to process which one you might be most like when you arrive at the end of your long day and come face to face with HIM! How will you react? Fun to think about, 

But the one thing I noticed each time someone met Him was that his reaction was always the same. No matter how the other's greeted him, He was smiling and his countenance full of JOY for you had come home. He touched and embraced and smiled and laughed and comforted and gave peace and forgiveness. He gives all these things to those He loves and cherishes! Just like the emotions your dog or toddler or mate or whoever was there when you came home at the end of the day they welcomed you and offered you what you needed at that moment. Now hopefully He won't piddle on your foot but maybe a szlurbert would be fun! 

Where does that leave your heart? 

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